Being Diagnosed with PCOS
1:07 PM
When I went into her office that morning I was preparing myself for one of the options that could have shown up on my blood panel. I was not, however, prepared for all three.
About three weeks ago I was diagnosed with Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome or "PCOS". Now as my OBGYN said. Its quite common. 1 in every 5-10 woman have it. She was very nonchalant about the whole thing. But not only do I have PCOS, I have the worse form of it that comes with Insulin resistance. That also leads me to be pre-diabetic and have hypothyroidism. Yay me!
The thing about it is that it will be harder to have children. Yes there are many many women who get pregnant with PCOS but its also much more than that. I have struggled with things my whole life that are now making much more since. My weight gain and trouble loosing it. Even my memory loss is a symptom of ths. So now I have to change everything about me. My eating habits. My exercise habits. And I'm not talking little changes. Big changes.
The thing that makes it the so frustrating is that i have to do it alone. Yes I have a husband but he knows nothing about it. I cant tell him much but only what I found online. The doctor wasn't very helpful at all. She is sending me to a specialist. An Endocrinologist to be exact. I've always wanted children. I've always wanted a family. I am almost 24 and yes there is "time". But not for me. The older I get the harder it will get. And my husband gets so frustrated he doesn't know what to do. I've been looking up things online. Every Paige has something the contradict the other.
Ex: Broccoli is great for PCOS. But you cant have it with hypothyroidism because it emits the same thing that soy does. Which is odd because from my understanding PCOS has something to do with the thyroid. So how is it good for PCOS and not for thyroid when they tie into each other.
I have one friend helping me. But its not even my best friend. When I told my best friend about this. She told me that I didn't need my ovaries to live. That I don't need kids. That it was irresponsible of me to try to have kids. In so many words told me it wasn't a big deal. I was shaken.
How is it irresponsible. I have a steady job. A home. A reliable car. Insurance. I feel like i'm doing okay. And if you ever wait to be financially ready to have kids you wont ever have them. My other best friend was ignoring me because of my political opinion that she called and asked me about.
So yes. I am going through this alone. It takes so much time and energy just planning what I can and can not have for my next meal. The general consensus from my online research is that I can not have: Bread (except whole grain. Not whole wheat), any dairy, Sugars (even natural sugars like honey), Fruit with too high a sugar content, Broccoli, cabbage, cauliflower.... the list goes on.
I'm supposed to live off air apparently. Oh and water. Make sure you drink your water!! *eye roll*
I'm stumbling through life already. And I am trying to be grateful and remind my self every day that it could always get worse. There are people worse off than me. That have a more complex condition than mine. But it still doesn't stop the hurt. The thought of not being able to have kids is devastating. And then having to do it alone.... well it makes it that much worse. All I can do now is keep my chin up. Try my damnedest. And hopefully I'll be blessed with kids so that I can start my family. Hopefully.
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