Oilfield Crisis (Pt. 2)
6:42 PM
Drowning is the word that comes to mind. The sinking feeling of being pulled down. Darkness evading the edges of your vision. As I sit in the chair looking forward I'm barely comprehending the words being said to me. "Brandi, we are sorry to say that we are going to have to lay you off." I'm then given the same speech about the downturn in the economy like many before me have been given. I start going over the list in my head of current events that have transpired. Examining every aspect to see what I did wrong.
As if they can read my mind they say "You've done nothing wrong." I tell them thank you for the opportunity and stand. They refuse to let me gather my things. They will get it together for me tomorrow. I am as relieved as I am annoyed.
I square my shoulders, lift my chin, and walk out. At least it is the end of the day. Mostly everyone has already gone. I am surprised that I've kept it together. There were a few tears that escaped in the office but overall I am proud of myself.
I get into my car and with shaking hands I dial my husband. At the sound of his voice I break down. I let him know what happened. Hes very encouraging. I think "How did I ever land someone as wonderful as him?".
I drive to my dads to let him know. He will tell me what to do next. I'm sure that I know what to do next but I just need him to tell me. I need him to tell me that it will be okay.
10-20 applications later and here I am. I've only landed 1 interview but at least that is something. I have my fingers crossed and hopefully I'll get a call back this week.
I will say after the heartbreak and tears, this is still a humbling experience. There are many people especially in deep south that are loosing jobs daily. People who have been there for 35 years are being forced into early retirement. Families having to sell their homes and move in with their parents just to get by. The thing about communities , not just here but everywhere, is that we are supportive and resilient. I will get through this. Many of you who are gong through rough times will get through this. Last November the current layoff count was up to 250,000. I can say through personal experience that number has grown and still continues to do so. It also brings into light the lack of job availability. In our community we've also closed a hospital. So not only am I fighting against people who have been laid off for jobs but also, the people from the hospital.
All, I can say is that in life their will be hiccups. Some that you can control, some that you can't. All you can do it try your hardest. Takes some big gulps of air and power through. If I can get through this, I know you can. You are strong. You are resilient. You are brave.
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